Dear friends and readers of this blog. I am both happy and sad to say that I have recently experienced a series of synchronicites and emotional epiphanies that tell me these horrific dreams about being involved in Satanic Ritual Abuse and experiencing MILAB (military abduction experiences/experiments/tests) are actually repressed memories. I don’t know for certain if they are from this incarnation or of one before or perhaps even a parallel life, which is possible for some advanced souls, but the undeniable messages from my body point to these experiences as fact.
There are a lot of unexplained behaviors and signs that have been manifesting over the years that are linked to re-surfacing of repressed trauma and PTSD (post traumatic stress disorder).
After doing so much inner work on the homophobia that has been present over the years that, sadly, continues up to date, in addition to the PTSD from working in a hospital in a life-and-death job, there were other symptoms that continued to get worse and worse until a breakthrough finally happened a few days ago on February 17th. That was the day a massive oscillation in the Schumann Resonance took place which lasted 24 hours. I believe these two events were connected.
And I was guided to put together the worst and most positive dreams in a video and share it on YouTube yesterday February 19th. That day was the date of the Full Moon which was also called the Snow Moon. This was another synchronicity which helped validate this process for me.
After experiencing a very bad episode of binge-eating (a compulsory urge to eat beyond being full) the night before, 2/16, which has been going on for years without even realizing why, my body said ‘enough is enough’. Over the past several years I have experienced this incredibly pitch-black infinitely evil rage which manifests at the worst times and was in-fact getting worse and worse. All it takes it tripping over something or something small going wrong to trigger it.
After breaking countless things in this RV (the back glass window, the wall, the paper towel holder and the dresser doors) and including breaking the glass screen of my phone the other day, it all started to make sense.
The very moment I acknowledged that these dreams were real events that took place, my entire body relaxed and I felt a peace and bliss that I haven’t felt in a long time. It was very overwhelming and so I was crying of course because these dreams were horrific and they involved some of the worst abuse one could do to a child/person. Who would want to think of them as real?
When these dreams first happened I just thought they were someone else’s experiences that I was supposed to pass on (dissociation at work here). But after consciously thinking “yes, this happened to me, this is real.” everything negative tapered off and now there is no more destructive rage. Just a deep sadness knowing that these things took place.
Additionally as weird, if I even momentarily ponder that these dreams are just dreams and nothing more, my body begins to feel like crap, like I feel dissonance throughout the body, like it’s saying ‘NO’ or ‘WRONG’ and I can feel the rage and negative emotions start building again. It’s like the inner child within is not going to put up with anymore denial. When I acknowledge these dreams as real, these feelings go away and I return to a calm, relaxed and blissful state. I realize this is most unusual but I think this is my own body’s way of helping me understand the truth so that proper healing and integration can take place.
And ever since I had this realization, the need to binge-eat has gone down to almost nothing. There is still a little bit there because this has been happening for years, but I think it will go away with time.
I would like to supplement this information with some intel that Cobra released in regards to this phenomenon that lightworkers/lightwarriors would experience as our implants gradually lost power:
“…During 1996-2001 timeframe, the vast majority of Lightworkers and Lightwarriors have been subjected to trauma-based mind programming in underground military bases. For many, memories of that programming will begin to surface as implants begin to lose their power…”
I have documented countless dreams where I am in some kind of an underground military base (some of these are shared in the video at the bottom of the article) where life-and-death testing is taking place, among other awful dreams.
And I have read that traumatic repressed memories can resurface in dreams in certain people. This appears to be one of the best ways to reintroduce this experience to the person without causing additional damage so they can finally integrate it into their consciousness.
In my case these dreams started when I began doing this research, around 2015-ish.. The subconscious must have thought it time to start re-surfacing these experiences in dreams since the concept of Satanic Ritual Abuse and other MILAB experiences wasn’t part of my life until that time. If they happened any sooner I would have just dismissed them, forgotten them, not written them down and the symptoms of trauma would have really gotten worse.
Here is the video where I shared the worst of the abusive dreams along with the MILAB dreams and to end it on a positive note, I share some very positive and uplifting dreams. This is how I like to make the videos anyways so that people aren’t left with a bad feeling.
All of the dreams along with the blog post where they are documented are marked with a time stamp and the URL to the blog post in the description and comments of the video.
My hope is that perhaps this will help someone somewhere in the world in their healing process and perhaps give them courage to speak out about abuse they’ve experienced.
Thanks for checking this out everyone and I wish all of you much love as always.