Personal Ascension Symptom/Synchronicity Update

I just wanted to do a short update about some of these symptoms and synchronicities I have been experiencing. This is a personal post and isn’t intended to represent what is happening to everyone else. Forgive me for my being candid and upfront about these things but I feel it’s important to be as real and as honest about this stuff as possible because I am sure it is happening to many of you.

I have been experiencing many ‘crash and burns’ lately, especially with my diet. I will become very anxious and feel as though I am not doing something right. Most days I feel great and there is nothing that affects me. Although I had a very bad day at work yesterday and I kept thinking ‘I don’t know if I am doing anything right’ over and over.

I felt a lot of the following recently and especially yesterday:

  • Anxiety about what to do next in general in regards to this whole planetary situation
  • Feelings of unworthiness or that I am annoying people with my posts and videos
  • Wondering how much longer we have to wait for The Event to happen
  • Feeling lost and wondering if what I am doing is the right thing to do or say or write about
  • Lots of feelings of uncertainty and insecurity (which leads me to eat unhealthy food which puts me in a worse state of mind)
  • Being in victim mode (which I don’t usually do as it blocks abundance and manifesting positive outcomes)
  • Feeling angry about the divide and conquer tactics used on the surface population that are working (part of my bad day yesterday was my co-workers talking down about transgender people right in front of me, which I did my best to defend myself and them)
  • I have no idea what’s going to happen next in general and it is scary to think about, but I know it will be positive

There are many amazing things and events happening too and the stuff I listed above isn’t happening all the time but it does seem to be happening in cycles for me. I am happy, then I get anxious in general, then I eat poorly, then I feel worse, then I break down and cry and then I feel great again. And the time in between each event is getting shorter and shorter. It’s quite taxing…I can’t tell if this is supposed to be happening or not but I am getting ‘just go with the flow’ so I guess it has to be happening for a reason.

Today I am recovering from a break down yesterday and still feel a bit ‘eh’ but am coming around. I decided against posting about this at first but a synchronicity in my e-mail I received a little bit ago guided me otherwise. Perhaps someone needed to hear this, or maybe not. Either way it’s out now. This synchronicity came as a bill notification. I didn’t pay enough for my energy bill and the remainder I owed was $1.44…Lol.

Light and love everyone.

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4 Responses to Personal Ascension Symptom/Synchronicity Update

  1. Christy says:

    Thank you for posting your perspective of what your going through. I’ve been asking myself all of these questions myself. It’s really comforting to read/hear this kind of honesty from someone I don’t know. I INTEND for you to accept/receive comfort as well knowing you have genuinely reached out and helped someone else. Please keep doing whatever your doing cuz it’s working!!!

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  2. Nikki says:

    I hear you, Jonathan. Have been up and down since the Unity Meditation/Solar Eclipse. I was up at 4am Tuesday (AEST) to meditate with the 250,000+ light workers in an effort to speed up the Ascension process.
    I had imagined I’d be absolutely buoyant (from now on) after the Eclipse but, like you, I’ve been running a gamut of emotions and negative thoughts; so unlike me to do so. I’ve been eating so poorly suddenly too. I’ve also been wondering (and wandering about) what do I do now? What happens next? But then, I’ve always been impatient. 🙂
    Please know that you are not alone in experiencing these… waves. I guess it is all part of the process. Thanks for sharing your thoughts. It has helped me.
    Love and Light to you,
    Nikki
    (Brisbane, Australia)

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